Sunday, November 22, 2009

grateful.

Well, Journal, Thanksgiving is coming up and I am very excited. This means that I can see my family and my friends that I haven't directly seen in three months. I cannot believe it has even been that long, I cannot believe that I am actually here at this school and that I get to be here. I always had a weird feeling it wouldn't happen, but it did. And I am so grateful for it.

I've learned something about being grateful, and it's that it's not about feeling like you're grateful and saying so that you can convince everyone else, but it's actually feeling it and when you think about all you have you realize all the problems in your life are really not that bad, because you have so much that you can be happy about. Grateful=happiness. If you are not happy, you are not grateful, and if you are reading this right now, if you are walking and can see and hear and if you are breathing, you have something to be grateful about.

Now we all forget about these things we should be grateful because the world tells us we can and should have more, and I'm not saying you can't have more, but before you say you NEED it, think about it, DO you? Journal, my message I'm trying to get across to everyone, including myself, is to appreciate everything you have. We are blessed beyond our imaginations. Our very existence is a blessing. Happy Thanksgiving Journal, and until next time, be grateful. :)

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Facebook me about it!

Journal, I'm pretty sure on a weekly basis I'm on Facebook enough that had that time been spent with the person instead of just "facebooking" them, I might actually appear to have a life. I mean, we're sometimes just a dorm away, sitting on our computers, chatting it up, when we both could actually get off our lazy butts and find each other.
I'm pretty sure A LOT of people are on Facebook enough to say this is true too. Why is it that we are so addicted to communication source that allows us to "Like" something by pressing a button and "poke"someone who is on the other side of the world? Have we been so accustomed to staying as physically far away from relationships as possible that we don't even realize how bad it is? I mean, I can call my friend and tell her over the phone that I'm going to the Caf in a few minutes and she can text me when she is running a few minutes late because she was skyping with her other friend. When we finally meet we can talk about the funniest video we saw on YouTube, and then stop in our track to go and watch this. Then we can realize the caf is closed and just go on pizzahut.com and order food that we can track the order of until it gets to our school, then we receive a call from the pizza man who is trying to locate Alpha Chi on his GPS, and we make the effort to meet him outside.
This is not about Facebook, Journal! This is about our world's dependence on technology! If computers just crashed, people would die. Not only because hospital equipment could go down, but the stress of not having an immediate connection to your life and the world would just break people. I remember a few years back, I heard on the news of some girl who took her own life because MySpace went down for like... EIGHT hours. No offense to the girl, but really? Journal, YOU are what I depend on to rant my most likely unimportant and relatively unnoticed opinons of the rest of the world's problems because I can't deal with my own because I am too busy on this stinking computer!
I can't say anything else but HOUSTON WE HAVE A PROBLEM! Technology. Until next time Journal, live a little.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

He loves me...He loves me not.

Recently, Journal, I've been presented with many occurrences of "marriage talk" and "dating talk" and bla bla bla. Biola has their "ring by spring" joke and rumor that girls who attend Biola are just looking to be a pastor's wife. We have the Alpha Chi stereotype that all girls are boy crazy and if a guy wants a girlfriend quick they need just walk down a hall. The pressure of finding your life partner seems an underlying concept that is just called a "stereotype" because really, Journal, everyone knows it's true for the majority. Probably twice a day at least I will hear girls talking about this guy or that and how they "don't want to get married until they are graduated" however, if God "shows them the right person..." Students here cannot decide for themselves whether or not they want to play into the tradition, so instead they just play it safe with the "if God wants me to, I will" card.
Sorry Journal, I'm sure I've used "quotes" enough in this one post for about five...but I couldn't really think of any other way to get this across. So, Journal, what do I think about it, you ask? Well, I'm not sure whether to call this stereotypical or unstereotypical, but honestly, I don't think you should even date in college, let alone get married. Why am I any different than all the other girls hiding the fact they really want to date? Because I can back my position up with solid, passionate opinion! Yeah.
I guess I'll tell you my opinion. So, I don't want to date in college because there is no point unless I'm ready to get married. And I'm not. I know people like to say you should date so you can get to know what you like in guys, but honestly, that's dumb. There is nothing you can't learn from a guy when he is just your friend than if you were dating him. If anything, Journal, I think that you can learn more because you see them for who they are, not who they are trying to be to impress you. If you have those four years or however many to get to know this guy as your friend, then once you decide that you want to date them, 1) you'll really know if you want to date them and 2) you'll know if they start changing once you are dating for whatever reasons. Dating shouldn't be a time of learning who they are as a person, but who they are as a possible...husband.
I guess I should wrap this up, but all I'm trying to say is that girls tend to rush into relationships because all they really want is attention from a guy (you can get that from a guy FRIEND) and they are excited at first, but then it dies and they get their heart broken and then they move on to some other person they don't' know. But how exciting would it be to actually know this guy and get to date him after you both know you want to be with each other. God says that patience is a virtue, however, last time I checked Journal, it wasn't a very practiced one. If people were more careful about who they wanted to be with, maybe the divorce rate wouldn't be at 50% or whatever it is. Or marriages would just be happier. I think when we are pulling petals off a flower and reciting "He loves me, he loves me not..." we manipulate the outcome because we want what we want. Sound familiar?
Who knows Journal, maybe I'll completely ignore my own advice and be dating someone next week. But until then, I'm staying true to what I believe because if you think about it, it kinda makes a lot of sense. Until next time Journal, stay single and happy!